I don't believe it.
I can't believe it.
I WON'T believe it.
I looked up to the sky as the rain pounded it's death-filled droplets on my already scorched skin.
I won't cry, I told myself, She's okay, she's okay.
My hopes were fading fast though as I saw her unconscious body laying not too far from me.
Paralyzed with fear and anxiety, I had to repeatedly tell my PAK for the use of my legs before they complied and I set off stumbling towards her.
I laced my claws in her fake but surprisingly silky dark brown hair.
The vibrant glow of magenta from the windows tinting her with an errie glow. Slowy the light was drowned out by red and blue as I heard sirens all around me.
I was convicted for murder, how I allowed myself to succumb to my evil side I don't know.
I felt and still feel like a monster.
Back to that day they arrived shortly after picking up the raven-haired boy I had killed.
It was his stupid fault.
He's the one who stole it from me again.
I ordered the PAK legs to shoot out and in a flash of scarlet he was erased from the present, now a part of history.
I do feel bad for the Gaz-sister and the Dib-father.
But that little wormed killed my En.
The only friend I had on that filthy planet.
And no I'm talking about Earth.
The Dib had killed my En, I don't know if he meant it or not, that I am not sure of, all I felt at the moment in question was anger towards him.
I made a foolish mistake.
And now I suffer dearly for it.
But I am forgaven.
She had been in the wrong place at the wrong time.
If I were a little more farther to the right and a little closer to her.
I would of took that shot.
The shot that peirced through her green skin and landed right in her heart.
I could have prevented it.
I know I could have.
She wasn't too far away.
I was too busy fooling around with Dib.
I caused two deaths that night.
Because I had been messing with Dib while he was aiming at me.
I jumped on him.
He rolled to the ground.
Accidentally pulling the trigger.
Horrified I turned my head and shouted,
But I guess it was too late.
It hit her.
Killing her instantly.
From there I really can't recall much except for feeling pure hatred towards the human.
He had killed my friend.
He wasn't going to get away with it.
I hate myself for what I did next.
I ordered the PAK with all my might to see if it could still read my commands.
Then a flash of scarlet.
A deafening scream.
And then I looked up and saw his fallen figure.
Laying in a pool of red.
Then the rain came.
Giving me my punishment.
When the Earth authorities came
I just let them take me.
I had no good reason to run
I deserved anything they had for me.
Maybe the Dib would get his autopsy and I would be able to be with En.
I had gotten my sins forgiven.
She tought me about God
And what was waiting for her and I
When we died.
Maybe I would get a death sentence.
In my defense I didn't really kill Dib or En.
Dib killed En
My PAK killed Dib.
The loss of my PAK almost killed me.
I only wished it did.
By some dumb un-needed luck
They just connected the cursed thing to my back
I don't understand why God didn't just let me die
Its His Will.
They took me to jail
Skipped juvinile jail
Went straight to jail
I wasn't even put on trial
They took me straight to a cell
And left me there to rot
Or so I thought
Gaz-sister bailed me
Her father-unit drove me back to my base
And left me at the door-step
Without a single word
I think they moved
I'm pretty sure they did
I went to Dib's funeral
I was the only one there other than the priest.
It was almost unfuriating
Not seeing anyone else care
About a death
I couldn't blame our class
Or the rest of the town
But what happened to his family
Or even maybe Keef?
It was just me
It showed me
Just how harsh
Not even caring about a child's death
Maybe he was crazy
slightly really annoying
After I left I came back to my base
Where deep in the underground labs I tried to revive her.
I fixed her PAK
Stiched back the hole in her heart.
And even took some blood of my own.
But I will find a way.
Because until she's alive again.
I'm not gonna be